Memories from a past life channeled into rebirth
The only tears left
For the loss of my parents
I have closed that door
Never to look back
Nothing in this world
Will ever break my heart again
No pain this world
Will put me through
Will stab my soul again
I stripped naked
Into my realness
Went back to the night
I was born
The moon shining bright and full
Grounded my knees
Clutched the earth
The dirt from which I emerged
Soiled my hair
With period blood
And yelled from my lungs
My heart in trepidation
Faster and louder
Than ever before
Muddied my naked body
Remembering the hands
Not mine
That robbed my innocence
Remembered the blood on my green panties
Just six years into this planet
Recalled the threats
If I ever opened my mouth
And said my truth
Memories of a knowing human
Who turned monster
For my breasts and vagina
Moments of freezing with fear
Body immobile
Mind clogged
For trusting in humanity
I was surprised
At the audacity of evil
When all I wanted
Was to be good
Nothing in this world
Will ever break my heart again
No pain this world
Will put me through
Will stab my soul again
Saw the small cold body of
A life I had nurtured in me
In a morgue amongst full grown adults
At the hands of a mortuary attendant
Whose face beamed
At the sight of an extra coin
Wept at the lies and betrayal
Of one I once called sister
And the cold heart
Of another I called brother
Nothing in this world
Will ever break my heart again
No pain this world
Will put me through
Will stab my soul again
Shadow cast on my heart
I sank into hades
Faced the devil
Fought off his grip
Now I pull the knives
From my back
With a smile
My tears have drained in the grass
Become one with the dew
To evaporate into the clouds
And fall back as rainfalls
I swam in the cold rushing river
And I didn’t freeze
Washed off the naivety
From my eyes and face
Stood on my two feet
Heaved a sigh of relief
Wiser
No longer that little girl
But a fearless dragon
Am going for my monument
Reborn with the first breath
After drowning for way too long
Emptied the ashtray
From chocking on cigarettes
Nothing in this world
Will ever break my heart again
No pain this world
Will put me through
Will stab my soul again
I waited for the sun’s healing rays
Ra’s defeat of Set
And breathed in fresh air from the lilies
The petals of poetry ready to heal
The sounds of the birds
Awoke my lost soul
Nothing in this world
Will ever break my heart again
No pain in this world
Will ever stab my soul again
Now I stand
Front of the mirror
Recognizing
Admiring
Appreciating
The scars, a reminder
And a victory from the storm
I clean off the murk
Rub love into my skin
Water my body
Till I can reclaim me again
Nothing in this world
Will ever break my heart again
No pain life puts me through
Will ever stab my soul again
They say your first poem
Is your first truth
Heck it doesn’t get more real
Than this
