i’m just hoping that this too shall pass.
if i come out of this i will be a stronger person than i was before.
something has definitely changed in me and i feel like a new person.
i am willing to quit some of the habits that i picked along the way and be a better person.
i will not go back.
i mean its only been a week but i feel like it has been the longest time of my life.
in this one week i have learnt what heartache is coz i have felt it inside my bones.
in this week i have cried more tears than i have half the year.
in this one week i have felt pain and oblivion that comes with sorrow.
i have missed the bright flowers and rainbows.
i have felt a hollow in my soul.
in this week i have realized that i too could go through shit that i never expected.
and i am praying that i overcome.
i have felt the weight of age.
i have felt lonely, weak and sick to my intestines.
i have lost the will power i collected in this twenty years.
in this week i have walked through hell and back.
i faced the devil and came out with a smile.
i have known what feeling alone in a multitude feels like.
i have known that repercussions exist.
i have touched agony with my lips.
i have watched my fingers shake.
i have been treated like garbage.
i have felt the taste of sweat in my throat.
i have walked under rain and felt it no more.
i have seen my life fade into nothingness.
i have missed my face on the mirror and failed to hear my own voice.
i have collected my million pieces of life.
i have seen a human being turn into a monster.
this has been the worst week of my entire life.
but i still wont give up.
i will hold on to this little thread of hope,
that flicker of light i see from far,
that distant voice,
that smile that is a thousand years away.
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